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A Cautionary Tale of a Reluctant Dominatrix PERMANENT OBSCURITY, a novel by Richard Perez

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Dommes are all the rage these days — from Melissa Febos to Elise Sutton. Take it as a sign of shifting gender roles, take it as a sign of female empowerment, take it as a sign of embracing a subculture that just years ago was considered freakish and taboo. Richard Perez’s darkly comic novel, PERMANENT OBSCURITY explores the world of dommes and “dominas,” particularly from the point of view of two down-and-out East Village wannabe artists who enter it partly out of curiosity, partly out of desperation.
This is by no means a politically correct book — even regarding BDSM culture; the story involves drugs, which as some may or may not know don’t mix with that world, or shouldn’t mix with that world. And this is partly the point of this cautionary tale. Shifting gender roles does not grant anyone the license to abuse others; with power comes responsibility. So maybe the most obvious question this story asks is: How can you dictate to others when you can’t control yourself?
The narrator of this story is Dolores. And she and Serena are best friends; both are young. Both have drug issues. It’s Serena, the more self-confident of the two, who takes ads on Craigslist for willing male subs. Dolores, although dominant by nature, is conflicted and can’t identify that way, and that would make her the more middle-of-the-road character:
“Oh, right,” Serena laughed. “I forgot how you hate being a top.” She said it sarcastically, but I thought it was true. I mean, it was more responsibility than I wanted. Usually.” (p. 142)
The story of PERMANENT OBSCURITY hinges on empowerment vs. being powerless; and it underscores the debilitating, soul-sucking quality of addiction, which undermines any possibility of control. And this is the major dilemma in the arts. Addiction of some sort seems to come with the territory. Who and what are artists, poets, writers if not addicted and compulsive people?
The central premise of PERMANENT OBSCURITY revolves around a dream of defining one’s own destiny. Early in the book, Dolores and Serena strike out as photographer and fetish model to produce a layout for a LA publisher, and from there a seed is planted: some possibility of a future project, which evolves into a movie idea. Not just an implausible fantasy, but a real possibility. If only Dolores and Serena can contain their neurotic need for self-sabotage. To put their plan into effect they rely on what’s familiar: putting out an ad on Craigslist, but this time for a writer (who also becomes an agent/author of destiny). With the writer aboard, script approval at hand, they seem, literally, to be in command of their own real life narrative. (The only thing the writer doesn’t deliver is a story ending, which, significantly, he promises to deliver “in person.”)
By hook or crook, Dolores and Serena get the necessary supplies to fulfill their plan: boosted camera, lights, moving van, media. But then fear and the dragon of meaningless rears its ugly head. What are they doing? Why are they doing it? It’s a question that artists continually ask themselves. Now add doubt and drugs to the equation. Then add massive drugs to dull the doubt and self-criticisms and what you concoct is a recipe for disaster, which is how this story unfolds. The Dominatrix film staring Serena, filmed and co-directed by Dolores, devolves into a face-sitting horror show/farce scripted by either Marquis de Sade, Eric Stanton, or David Lynch.
PERMANENT OBSCURITY may not sound like a pleasant story and in many ways it isn’t; yet what makes it palatable is the narrative voice of Dolores, an impulsive and often comically conflicted character, unaware of her own darkness and the depth of her own self-destructive nature. Some have called this a black comedy, and by turns it’s very funny. But in the world of the arts, where desperation and addiction rules, it stands as a warning to anyone who might let control slip away — would-be dominatrix and artist alike.
Book review by Carla Melendez
PERMANENT OBSCURITY: Or a Cautionary Tale of Two Girls and Their Misadventures with Drugs, Pornography and Death by Dolores Santana (as told to Richard Perez) Paperback: 464 pages Publisher: Ludlow Press ISBN-10: ISBN-13: 978-
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Calendar 2011, For Good and Bad

admin January 5th, 2012

Let’s face it, life is not at all sunny and full of rainbows. Life, indeed, has its good and bad side, its ups and downs. True enough, the metaphor of life being compared to a wheel, really has its perks. It is really true that like the wheel, in life, sometimes we are up and sometimes we are down. Life is really not about the good things outweighing the bad things. The quality of your life does not depend on the good things or experiences that you just had. You can’t say the year is good just because it is all showered with blessings and success.
A life that is ridden with unfortunate circumstances, problems and frustrations could also be considered as a good year. Although, those experiences are some of the many things that we would rather not experience again, those are traumatic experiences that we would rather leave in oblivion, we could not deny the fact that we learned something. Yes, those experiences taught us to become better people. It gives us a more mature version of us. Let’s admit it, because of those bitter experiences we now see life in a whole new light. We are now stronger individuals. Experiencing these hardships, trials and tribulations in life makes us feel that we are invincible; that we could handle anything that life throws into us.
You see, life is not all about what happens to us, the way we see life matters the most. Our perspective about life is one of the most important thing in the world. It changes everything. But sometimes, we could not see our perspective in life not until we talk about it with a friend or someone we trust. However, a friend is not there all the time to provide us the right perspective on the things that are happening with our lives, this is why for a change we need a new companion for the coming year.
This is no other than the very reliable calendar 2011. Having a calendar 2011 is like having a friend who is on call for you 24/7. How would this one work, you may ask? Well, the logic behind the calendar 2011 and your perspective is pretty simple. You would just have to jot down everything in your calendar. Remember that when you write something it is similar to writing things that you have to read eventually. It is more like talking to yourself. Now, when you have everything, good and bad, written down, it would help you correct your perspective on things and realize that you are seeing some things in a bad light. That is how helpful calendar 2011 is.
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